Sigh

positive thinking! positive thinking!! i can't let what others say affect me so much!!

apart from that.

pretty good!

its the first day that the new afternoon tea set was put into place. :)

Not bad!!

Around $1100 afternoon tea sales. Which is higher than our usual! Praise God!! I can't help but feel good when i see the new material that I've designed.

I think that's what i like best about this job. You can see ppl actually using the stuff you design.

I'll be in Sydney next week. First time with parents. Not sure how its gonna work out. Hope to see a lot of friends!

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i've realized how 苦手, pathetic, i'm at handling conflict

比想像中脆弱

or maybe i've just been too comfortable in Australia these years

神様！助けてください！

what am i doing?!

i hear about my friend who's gonna move to japan next year

(i wanna go to japan!!)

and my other friend who's doing a medical internship in kenya. KENYA!

and what am i doing?!

yeah this is what i've been doing :) not bad.

The joys of my new job

I'm working for my parents now. And its actually great for a first job. Flexible hours, plenty of freedom, free meals and.....i actually like what i'm doing!
We had a food photo shoot last week and it was so fun! I'm putting the photos together into posters now and new stuff for our lightboxes as well. Today i had a visitor from Sydney so didn't get anything done (well i guess i can't blame it on her) but my parents don't seem to mind :)

how does this look?!

this is me in the middle of the shoot!

Prayer and Fasting?

It seems like prayer and fasting always go together in the Bible. But then nowadays the focus is more on prayer and i don't know many that fast.

So I'm planning to give it a go. I'm praying for a breakthrough in my life. I feel like I'm not getting anywhere.

But then in a sense I'm also scared of change and surrendering to God. How strange does that sound?

In today's morning prayer/devotional session we read Psalm 81. In v1 it says: Sing for joy to God our strength; shout aloud to the God of Jacob!

The Chinese translation is pretty good i think. I've always brushed past this verse. But it actually says sing and shout! I'm usually too quiet, too mumbly, and i get sleepy.

See how this goes!

Passover Dinner

It's my first passover dinner. I guess it is pretty meaningful, but there was a lot of waiting and i was getting really....impatient? For some reason i can't just sit and do nothing. I get frustrated. Well a lot of ppl put effort into this so i should be more thankful.

I'll be going to another one held at our church on thursday.

Hmmm........

I need to be more positive and thankful.

Fears in my heart

I've been going to a course at church for new believers, and i find it really helpful. The last lesson was about dealing with our fears and anxieties.

I'm a person that can get stressed really easily, and the root of that stress I realized (only today) is fear. Fear that things won't go well, fear that I won't finish a certain project on time, fear of failure, fear that I'll waste my life, fear that I'll never be married.....

many fears and most illogical. i mean even if i don't finish something on time, its not the end of the world right?

i get stressed easily and a lot of times a feel a dull pain in my chest when i'm stressed. This started last year when I had to do my final graduation project.

I pray that the Lord will give me strength to overcome these fears that have been around for so long.

Bakuman

I haven't written in ages.
But I've decided to pick it up again.

I've been pretty hooked onto a manga series called Bakuman. It's about 2 kids who want to become popular mangaka (ppl who write/draw manga).

I felt so pumped up after reading this manga, that I've decided that I want to write manga too.

My favorite character in the manga is this guy called Nizuma Eiji, a weird, talented, eccentric type of guy. I admire how this guy and the main characters are so passionate and into what they do. (its the guy on the cover)

I've decided to buy the whole set of bakuman manga in Japanese. Which is expensive.

ah but o well, there's rarely a series that i feel so inspired by.