going on mission

Hmmmmmm
i wonder what God has prepared for me
I feel quite unprepared for this trip
I have a habit of jumping into trips without really thinking about the consequences
This was true with choosing to go Australia for University
This was true with going to Vancouver for exchange......
It's not courage really
it's ignorance.

And this time: mission to Kunming.
Didn't think too much. Was just quite interested after hearing about it. And it fitted with my schedule.

Hmmmm...........
but I really hope that God will open my eyes
and let me see more

さ．．．あそこ、何を見えるかな。。。

Please please do pray that God will open my eyes and my heart

Just the presentation to go

somehow i need to talk about it and SELL it
i feel pressured
because i really haven't done that much work

but at least i have the opportunity to talk it through

O Lord

Please give me strength and the wisdom that I lack

but Praise the Lord

that the hardest part is over

May everything I do and say bring you glory O Lord

ひさしぶりに。。。

Ahhhh its been a while
heading into pretty much last week of work before presentations
.......
learning to be disciplined (yes, STILL learning)
but as always
GOD IS GOOD!

there's always a temptation to bail out

but no!
O Lord please help me persevere till the end

i realize this week will pass in a flash and miraculously

TADA

my grad project will be finished

About my drama fast

Yes. AHEM> it has been a month.
well.
i can't say i've entirely succeeded. it kinda....uh....died down a bit a near the end.

but i think it was very helpful and i'm really glad i gave it a good go.

i'm definitely not as hooked as i was a month ago.

now, i'm gonna just follow 1 drama. 1 episode per week.

until i finish uni.

which is in 3 weeks!!!!!!!!!

Really?

My housemate said to me today that I don't think deep. Before i think of a way to solve problems, I'll ask ppl for advise and then evaluate the advice.
and also that i only think in one way, i don't think of different options.

.......

そうかな。。。。

i guess i am a lazy thinker. i like being told what to do, and making big decisions also take a lot out of me.

oh and i also said that i'm easily distracted.

which is true.

AHHHHHHHHHHHH

so as it turns out i will be applying for permanent residency

and to have enough points i will have to take the IELTS test

so most of Nov will be cramming for my Japanese Proficiency Exam

and then go back to HK to do IELTS

worse of all

i'll be spending heaps of my parents money

since i'll be coming back to Australia

doing an expensive graphic design course

what to do? i've got this guilt on my heart.

but now: NEED TO FOCUS ON FINISHING WELLL

3 more weeks of uni.

here we go

Aromatherapy

New hobby..... haha i bought all of this on sunday, but i found out that after a while, the smells all smell the same. hopefully this has a good effect on my skin, helps lower stress.....